I pity the fool
I actually had myself convinced that I was pregnant this month. Like, convinced. And I was so excited that I would be able to tell all the people that are most important to me in person, since I'm seeing all of those people in the next 2 weeks. Oh yeah, and if I was pregnant, I would be due at the end of February, and we'd have ourselves another pisces.
But I was wrong. And now I feel foolish. And stupid. I should have known better than to get excited.
It's made me think of what I'm doing in my life that is helping me and what isn't. Therapy I think was good for a while, but I don't think it is any more. I just feel like I get to her and bitch about work, and it's causing me stress to have to know that I have that appointment every other Monday. And I'd rather start saving that money for something that might actually help me through this process - like medical intervention. So, I'm going to tell her on Monday that I'm done.
You know what's not helping me either? Beer. I love it, but I can't keep drinking like I have been.
And maybe caffeine, too. I'm going to try to ween myself off of caffeine by slowing replacing regular with decaf and then I can stop that too and save myself the $30 a month.
And we'll see about acupuncture. I'm not convinced its working. And it's expensive.
But you know what makes me feel good? Yoga. I feel good and strong and calm when I'm done. AND - it's free! Win win.
So that's my plan. Starting Monday, things are going to change.
But I was wrong. And now I feel foolish. And stupid. I should have known better than to get excited.
It's made me think of what I'm doing in my life that is helping me and what isn't. Therapy I think was good for a while, but I don't think it is any more. I just feel like I get to her and bitch about work, and it's causing me stress to have to know that I have that appointment every other Monday. And I'd rather start saving that money for something that might actually help me through this process - like medical intervention. So, I'm going to tell her on Monday that I'm done.
You know what's not helping me either? Beer. I love it, but I can't keep drinking like I have been.
And maybe caffeine, too. I'm going to try to ween myself off of caffeine by slowing replacing regular with decaf and then I can stop that too and save myself the $30 a month.
And we'll see about acupuncture. I'm not convinced its working. And it's expensive.
But you know what makes me feel good? Yoga. I feel good and strong and calm when I'm done. AND - it's free! Win win.
So that's my plan. Starting Monday, things are going to change.
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