Nervous...

While the baby shower and acquiring of baby supplies has helped to ease quite a bit of my anxiety, I know am feeling the stress of the things I can't control.  I CAN control material purchases.  The rest seems somehow way out of my hands, and I'm starting to panic a little.  What if I can't handle a natural birth?  Or even a drug induced birth?  What if the baby isn't healthy?  What if I can't breastfeed?  What if I can't do this whole mothering thing?  What if he hates me?

I know these are silly (and hopefully normal) fears that every woman faces, but they're starting to get to me now.  I don't think I'm ready for him to be here yet.  As much as I'm starting to get big and achy, I'd rather he just stay where he is...